25 January 2014

Chapter Six - PARIS BLUES

Six
PARIS BLUES


Paris, spring 1990


In a dimly lit underground chamber in the guts of Paris, a group of laboratory-suited individuals sat around an oval table. Their words were muffled by the freezing cold air of the surrounding vaults and the antiseptic masks on their faces. The soft neon light disclosed well-groomed men and women of middle age underneath the scrubs. The room was sterilized, as required by its function as a microbiology laboratory. The catacombs of Paris hide many terrible secrets: this rendezvous was one of them.
A grim center table had the undivided attention of the symposium. Lying on it was a human-sized glass pod. A body was wrapped in muslin bandages inside this unusual incubator. It looked like a mummy with the shape of a woman. The mummy was alive. Her right hand was moving, signaling ‘yes’ and ‘no’ to questions being posed. Her vacant eyes and shaven head were the only parts of her body that had not been covered in gauze. Electroshock pads were still attached to the skin on her skull. Wires and fiber optic cables connected the pod to a machine at one end of the table.
“Can you hear me?”
The mummy raised her left forefinger slightly.
“She’s come round, Monsieur Harker, she’s come round! We’ve made it! The electroshock didn’t kill this one! We’ve made it!”
The man with glasses spoke with a strong French accent. His eyes were beaming. He stopped the flow of current that was still directed at the woman. The tall man next to him, with chin-length wavy hair tucked under the protective clothing, was Robert Harker. He looked to be in his mid-thirties and was known around the world for many reasons, most particularly for being one of the most handsome men ever to grace the planet. He raised his hands and pushed them forward. Silence fell on the room at his gesture.
“Hush, Francois,” he said, “we’re not there yet. She needs to survive the first 24 hours before we can sing our victory song. Marion, what is her temperature?”
“42 degrees, Robert. It’s been decreasing slowly and steadily. Her brain activity is within normal parameters. No damage has resulted from the procedures. The lobotomy was successful. Likely, she has retained a comprehension of the basic rudiments of language, but hopefully she has no notion of her identity anymore.”
“Let’s see...,” Harker said turning to the mummy. “Who are you?”
Silence was unbearable and still unbridgeable for the mummy-like girl: it sucked her in like water down the drain, vacuumed into a void. She lied still. Far too much space was in her head. A big blank descended when the question was asked. She didn’t have a clue as to who she was. She understood sound and nothing else. The voice that was talking to her was soothing. It could take her home. She was pure matter ready to be forged by the whims of her onlookers, by the sound of that voice. All she could understand were the sensations she was experiencing. She enjoyed breathing, shallowly at first, and then more deeply. Yes was yes and no was no. They had told her so repeatedly when all she could see was that big bright light. Now she wanted to sleep again. Rest. Forget even more. No need to hold on to any memory. She was new, she was the Chosen One. Her body hurt. Her limbs were heavy. Her eyes couldn’t focus on any shape in particular. She had only definitions but nothing to attach them to yet. She wondered if she was a larva, a parasite. No: she was a girl, almost a woman, the Chosen One. Their voices had told her, their words had programmed her. All was dark now and she needed to rest.
Marion Le Blanc started fiddling with the machinery. A red button came on. All faces turned to look at what she was doing. She addressed the man wearing glasses.
“We’re losing her, Francois. Brain activity is deteriorating. She has a regular pulse though. No panic, the situation is under control. Pump more morphine and give her more anesthetic. That’s it. There should be no major brain damage and she’s likely to have retained all of her organ functions perfectly. Let’s wait and see... my God... I can’t believe we’ve made it... I’ll believe it when she’ll be walking and talking... my God, my good God... we’ve made it, it’s a miracle!”
This was the most secretive and confidential clinical trial that Three-D Pharmaceuticals had ever run. Indeed, it wasn’t really a clinical trial, although that was how they had labeled it from the beginning, in case any information leaked. So far so good; twenty years of ground breaking research and preparation had gone into perfecting the study. Many ‘guinea pigs’ had succumbed to the perils of this adventurous experiment. The world needed it now more than ever - Kassandra Morgante had to be stopped before she could develop her self-healing powers and grow ever-lasting cells in her body.
No pharmaceutical company could survive if the element of immortality and viral invulnerability were introduced into the minds and bodies of the human species. Everything would blend into oneness. The very foundation upon which the industry was based would be shaken irrevocably. The course of history would be changed forever. Fear and death would disappear over time, and Time itself would eventually come to an end. No one, but a fool, would want this.
Duality was much better than oneness, and Harker knew this. Human evolution was based upon struggle and making the right self-preserving choices. Some may maintain that love is nature’s preference. In the third dimension, however, a species’ endurance doesn’t result from love. It depends on fear, which had so far driven the Survival of the Fittest of the Earth. Kassandra had to be wiped out, or at least counteracted. That’s why Harker had devised an antidote to her: her own personal, custom-build nemesis.
He turned pensive for a second as he remembered the place of his origin. He could never go back there, to that plane where love rules. Wasn’t love the force that had begun to erode his angel race after all? Too much love can wipe matter away, and sweep life into nothingness. It was starting to happen on Venus when he had taken his bet. He wouldn’t let this happen on Earth, his adoptive planet for the past number of millennia. The last two thousand years had been a greater challenge, as more and more Beings of Light had started to incarnate as Earthlings. This was raising the Planet’s frequency, and humans were starting to live longer and better lives. But it was Kassandra’s birth that was the real problem. She was equipped to succeed: she was designed to be the first immortal human.
Something needed to be done before that could happen. Harker had sided with the most money-driven, mercenary pharmaceutical giant in order to counteract the Arkadian Plan. Humans had to continue to suffer and die. Their collective fear had kept him in vogue for so long, and it had given him the strength to last for all these centuries. The Lord of the Ego, the Angel of Pain, the Most Beautiful in the Legion of Angels, or Monsieur Harker as they called him now. He had introduced the Goddess Games on Earth after all, and didn’t want any new rule to be introduced.
His amber eyes were fixed on Charlotte Mechant’s body: it was half the size it had been a year before, on the night he had enticed her to the lab. She was an easy prey. A spotty seventeen year-old girl, a problem teenager who’d run away from her family in the countryside of Bourgogne to the French capital in search of work, love and a new body. She was overweight then, verging on obese. Depression and an extreme need for attention were her constant companions. She thought she had found the help she badly needed at Monsieur Harker’s Hypnosis Centre on the Boulevard du Mont Parnasse. The clinic was expensive and lavishly decorated, with marble floors and antique tapestries on the walls. Charlotte fell in love with Bob Harker the second she saw him. All women did; and he knew that she would also follow suit.
Now she was lying on the table, covered in bandages and shaved head to toe, having undergone ninety-seven different surgeries and hours of electroshock at various degree of intensity. She definitely had the body she had always wanted at last. It would be revealed once she had healed. He knew that she would succeed: he had created his own personal ‘anti-Kassandra’. From this point onwards, the efforts of the Luciferian Tribe he led could concentrate on making Charlotte believe she was like Kassandra, so that they could swap places, and Kassandra would hopefully forget who she really was. The former would be difficult. The latter would be borderline impossible.
There was a lot of cunning in Harker’s plan, but he had to entrap Kassandra before her powers could grow any stronger. It would take some hard work to defy her mighty helpers. The Tribe had always enjoyed a challenge anyway. Harker wanted Kassandra for himself. He could seduce her to, though somehow he felt reluctant at that possibility. Nevertheless, he needed to de-activate her to fulfil his own personal prophecy and create the world he wanted.
She was becoming a real problem. Her energy was rising and reaching towards the Core Signature, the harmonious frequency of creation. She could raise the consciousness of those she interacted with by her mere presence. This kind of shift in perception could bring about a change in the cellular make-up of those who experienced it. In due course she would end up tuning into her Core Signature, bringing her chakras into alignment and prompting to the kundalini to rise and dance. When the 12-strand DNA replaced her normal 2-strand one, she would become an angel.
This could be contagious, too. That’s why the Tribe was keeping close watch. So far, her escapades into her angelic essence had been short-lived and inadvertent. She didn’t realize they were coming from her and thought of them as external experiences generated by the environment, or as messages from the natural world. Harker didn’t want this to happen, and certainly not while she was in Paris.

* * * *


When Kassandra, who at this stage was an undergraduate student at Edinburgh University, arrived in Paris, the atmosphere changed. She brought Light and good energy, and the city hated this. As usual, we, the Arkadian Masters, followed her to shelter her from the snares of the Dark Forces. After all, the place she was visiting was the hub of all Luciferian activities, the capital of the Dark Angel, the environment in which the deepest wound of the Earth was kept permanently bleeding. Evil lurked freely everywhere, in the lushest of disguises. However, Kassandra hadn’t noticed. Her focus, as usual, was on love, which she was seeking actively once again. This time she was hoping to find it in the romantic surroundings of the French capital, sitting in a café or strolling along the Seine. Letizia was her travelling companion. The girls’ friendship was still as strong as when they were growing up together in Northern Italy.
The official excuse for their visit to Paris was that Kassandra wanted to look at some early Merovingian manuscripts in the Bibliothèque Nationale. She was in the third year of her Medieval History degree and had managed to get a travel bursary for this purpose. She and Letizia had already been through a number of adventures together, and they were adamant that this was going to be another one of them. They wanted to explore new ground. April was a good month to do just that. So they boarded a train in Venice one evening, and found themselves in Paris on the following day. They were both 22 then. They took a twin room in a hostel in Saint Michel. Breakfast was included. The expanse of the city stretched out ahead for them to explore. Everything was possible.
The first few days were spent admiring the artistic treasures of the Louvre and the Jeu de Paume, and the quirky beauty of the Pompidou Centre. Kassandra wanted to leave the manuscripts until later in their two-week stay. On the third morning, the two friends decided to have an early breakfast and hit the town without any further ado.
“Kassie, wake up! It’s sunny outside! Let’s get moving now.”
“Letizia... what time is it?”
“7 on the dot. I woke up over an hour ago... can’t you hear that?”
“What? I’m too groggy... ah, yeah... someone’s singing... underneath our window... down in the alleyway... beautiful voice...”
“Beautiful my arse! It woke me up when I really needed a rest. We have a full day ahead of us and I wanted to feel recharged this morning... not serenaded!”
The sun was shining through the curtains. Kassandra got out of bed, put on a sweater and went to open the window.
“Bonjour! Hey there! Good morning to you and thanks for the music!”
A young man in a cowboy hat and a long suede coat was leaning on the brick wall of the back street, strumming his guitar and humming a bluesy tune. He sounded American, at least when he sang. It was hard to make out much of what he was singing though, as his words were mumbled. The song was about getting a girl, taking her away from Boulevard du Montparnasse and to the man who loved her. A strange blues with a Parisian twist, probably his own composition. He stopped for a short second to greet Kassandra with the flash of a perfect smile. There was something familiar about him, she thought, though she was sure they had never met.
“Hello...,” he said looking up absent-mindedly. His blond hair fell on his shoulders in sun-kissed waves.
“Definitely Californian, definitely a surfer,” Kassandra told Letizia as her eyes absorbed the vision of this suntanned troubadour who looked more like an athlete than a travelling musician. “I have found what I’d come looking for in Paris!”
His chiseled face was unique: he had blue eyes and slightly Asian features. He continued to play his music, keeping his eyes on the girl who was leaning out of the window in a vest and shorts. She was even more attractive than he’d guessed at first glance. He had seen her the day before in the breakfast room. Stunning. He had felt a drive, almost a compulsion, to get to know her. Conor, that was his name, was always on the lookout for the chance of a romantic liaison. She fit the part: exotic, innocent and young as she was. How old could she be? Eighteen perhaps? He was a man of experience at twenty-three, and well-travelled too. Was she Spanish? A tourist in the city of love. He had tricks up his sleeves and he wanted to show her. His fingers could touch a young woman in the most exquisite way. He could feel her trembling under his hands already. She had to fall for him: she had to be enthralled by his charms.
Gonna get your girl, gonna take her down...”, he was singing.
“Are you staying in this hostel?,” Kassandra asked him. He nodded in reply.
“Well, see you downstairs at breakfast then!”
He smiled and continued with his song. Letizia appeared at the window and slammed it closed. She raised her middle finger to him as she pulled the curtains. Conor remained as if transfixed in the alleyway, playing his guitar for a few more minutes. Then he woke up from his trance and couldn’t quite understand what he was doing in the backstreet so early in the morning. He felt very sleepy and tired all of a sudden. All he could do was go back to the dorm and hope for a bit of sleep, despite the fact that everybody else would be waking up.
“What did I smoke last night? What did I drink? Where did I go,” he wondered.
 A sensation of panic and fear started spreading from his head to his heart, finally reaching his guts. Or was it hunger?  Perhaps he should go and get a bite. Breakfast would be served in half an hour in the hostel. Food or no food, the fact remained that he had no recollection of what he’d done the night before and how he ended up playing underneath a window at dawn. Whose window was it?
 “Mad trip, man! I’m running on empty here... gotta ground myself again, gonna get some sleep, man!”
The two girls emerged from the luxury of their twin room into the hostel’s cafeteria where many of the guests were already busy with breakfast. Kassandra’s hair was in a ponytail. She wore a miniskirt and a sweatshirt that she had selected carefully in the hope of getting the attention of the weird but gorgeous serenading dude. Heads turned as she walked in. She looked around the room: he wasn’t there. Her heart sank. She put some food and a coffee on her tray and went to sit with her friend at the end of one of the long tables, wanting to avoid having to chat with other guests.
“Where is he?”
She was sure she would find him there waiting for her. She always got what she wanted after all, especially with men.
“Kassie, get a grip, he’s probably fast asleep now. He was completely out of his face, didn’t you notice? He wasn’t singing, he was mumbling...”
Letizia was right. Conor hit his bunk bed and fell fast asleep, totally oblivious to any noise around him. He started to dream. He could hear a soothing voice in his sleep, hammering the same words in his head: “Get that girl and bring her to me...” Every cell in his body was acquiescing to that command. He was a man with a mission and failure was not an option. Back in the cafeteria, meanwhile, he was the topic of conversation between the two girls. Kassandra had definitely fallen for his charms.
“But he nodded when I told him I would meet him here... he had the most beautiful face I had ever seen...”
“They all have the most beautiful faces you’ve ever seen, Kassie! And how could you possibly believe him? A total stranger, drunk or something, and that one was definitely from another planet, I tell you. If he’s not sleeping right now, he’s probably walking around the streets of Paris with his guitar, busking to earn some money...”
“Not at 7:30 in the morning! Not when he smiled at me the way he did...”
“You didn’t come to Paris to fall for an American bum, as pretty as he may be, who is likely high on drugs and penniless. You know the reasons why we’re here...”
“Sure, my research... the magical powers of the Merovingians, their divine descent... how I can develop my own powers by following their teachings... but wasn’t he just the cutest man who has ever treaded the Parisian pavements? I want to know him, I have to know him... something is pulling me towards him... Maybe not today, but I’ll keep my eyes peeled and my ears open until I meet him again. I have a feeling he has an important message for me...”
Paris looked enchanted that afternoon. The Seine was calm and majestic, and the Eifel Tower sparkled in the sunshine. The girls went to the Beaubourg to watch the street entertainers. Summer was fast approaching and the weather was perfect for outdoor activities. With an ice cream cone in their hands, Kassandra and Letizia stood in the crowd, watching jugglers and contortionists earn their trade outside the Pompidou Centre. Kassandra’s presence brought a sense of wellbeing to the people standing around her, though they didn’t know she was the reason for their sudden bout of elation. Sunshine and joy were the essence of her youthful being. In this set of circumstances, she would normally thrive and the most incredible adventures could unfold. Provided she didn’t get too enmeshed in her human side that always tended to play havoc with her plans.
Letizia was aware of the oscillations between her friend’s two sides, and was always on the lookout for signs of approaching drama. That was part and parcel of her relationship with the magical girl. She knew of Kassandra’s powers from their early years in Italy. The first miracle she saw her perform was when she witnessed her resuscitate her dead hamster. Kassandra had since tried to teach Lettie how to copy her skills, but to no avail. She nevertheless insisted that such powers were available to one and all, if only one really wanted to achieve the desired result.
“Minds shouldn’t falter in the pursuit of one’s wishes,” she used to say. “You must embrace your heart’s whims with all of your might.”
Letizia didn’t know whether her friend was mad or a genius. She was sure that she wasn’t completely human. However, her non-humanity – whatever that may be – wasn’t her concern. She was far more worried by her friend’s over-blown sentimentality and tendency to fall for the wrong guy. Paris was a dangerous place for both of them. Letizia sensed it and realized that her friend was in denial about it.
We knew that Kassandra’s human side had taken over, and her hormones had driven her to the place wrongly known as the city of love. It was a city of fun, that was a given, but only that. In that very place, love was vulnerable to attacks from the darkness, and mixed messages could be received. Letizia wanted to protect Kassandra without letting her know; thus we could operate through her. Despite Kassandra’s self-centred take on life, Letizia was generous and loyal to her. She didn’t mind: it would all pay off one day.

* * * *

The crowd of spectators was intent on observing the buskers and the street performers. A group of tiny, one-foot tall, almost invisible people gathered around Kassandra and Letizia as they were watching a show. These creatures served their Lord’s orders to a T. They had been sent to steal Kassandra’s wallet, and to test for still-vulnerable areas in her life. As it stood, her mind didn’t falter. Her body was becoming stronger and stronger. Her Core Signature could at times tune into the Sound of Creation in pitch-perfect fashion, so her invulnerability was on the rise. Her physical belongings and physical environs were all that was left for the Darkness to attack. Everything else, it seemed, was impenetrable to an assault from Shadowland and its creatures.
The little people were dark fairies at the service of a very illustrious master: the Prince of Darkness himself, who operated in disguise 1990’s Paris under the name of Robert ‘Bob’ Harker, hypnotherapist supremo. These fairies were only visible to children who had not yet lost the ability to see into the ethereal dimension. These creatures were not really evil. Good and bad are only relevant in the three-dimensional world of duality. As fourth-dimensional beings, they only understood a drive towards action of a type or another. As they belonged to the Dark Side, their inclination was towards the dictates of the ego and their direction was towards a re-enactment of the past.
The Pompidou Centre towered over the crowd, and the crowd towered over the little people. The latter were not worried that a couple of kids had spotted them among the standing spectators. Their only concern was how to approach Kassandra without her noticing. This would be tricky: her second sight was already well developed and she had often caught glimpses of the fourth dimension. If she did see them, her abilities would allow her to break anything created by the Darkness. They couldn’t risk being caught by her eyes.
They had to aim at her Achilles’ heel: her attraction for men. If a handsome man appeared in the Beaubourg, her stellar sensors would diminish, while she tuned into her human side. This would allow the dark fairies to move around her, freely and unnoticed. Her constant focus on men was due to the fact that her star DNA and cells were developing in her body at the same rate as her human hormones. The more she was turning into a star being, or a human angel, the more her human aspects were attracting, and attracted to, their own kind. The struggle in her was still only hinted at during this phase of her life, and not enough for her to have yet noticed.
The little people enlisted the help of one of their human colleagues, Pierre, who was the security guard at the Hypnosis Centre. As an initiate into the Mysteries of Lucifer, he was the ideal candidate for the purpose; all muscles and equipped with a handsome, chocolate-box-type of face. As soon as he walked past the girls, Kassandra’s eyes were glued on him and not on the show. He stopped to stand next to them, skimming her arm with his. Her hormones jumped around her endocrine system sending her far from subtle reproductive signals she couldn’t ignore. She turned to look at him. He smiled. She felt his thoughts travel to her breasts and down to her genitals. She felt instantly aroused.
 He was very attractive. Not too tall and his face was as cute as a button. He had the same colorings as she: dark brown hair and green eyes. His muscles were well defined but not too bulky. He wore a white shirt and a pair of jeans. Letizia was eyeing him, too. The two girls looked at each other and giggled. With one glance, they understood they were ready to play their favorite game: man-teasing. They would make him hot under the collar, simply because they could.
Meanwhile, the little people stood still and observed the three youngsters, ready to intervene as soon as opportunity arose. Pierre started to talk to the girls. He addressed them in English, which surprised Kassandra, given that she and her friend had been talking in Italian next to him.
“This is a great act. The guy can flex and bend his body as if it was made of rubber. It’s like watching something against the laws of physics...”
“It’s remarkable, and a bit freaky,” Letizia said.
Kassandra smiled mysteriously and kept her eyes on the show. She knew that by ignoring a man, his attention would be guaranteed. She was right. An hour later, the three were sitting in a café on Boulevard St. Michel, sipping champagne and talking about things to do in the city. Pierre had offered to be their guide over the next couple of days. If everything went smoothly, Kassandra might bag herself the lovely Californian, while Letizia could find herself in the arms of the cute French man. Love was in the air. Or, more accurately, passion was on the cards. Unbeknown to the girls, however, something more sinister was lurking in the background.
Kassandra’s bag was on the floor under her chair. Perhaps it wasn’t very clever to leave it there as a tantalizing bait for any petty thief in the vicinity. Normally both girls would be a bit more street-wise. The fairies took it easily. When Kassandra’s hand reached under her seat to fetch it, she realized that it was no longer there. They hadn’t noticed anyone approaching them, given they were sitting in a corner and her chair was next to the adjoining walls. But the bag had disappeared. And with it, her passport, money and student card. Her heart sank. Now what?
They went first to the Police to report the loss of her identification documents and belongings, and from there to the Italian Embassy. By the time they reached the Police Station, the fairies had already taken her bag to the Catacombs. They wanted to disturb her plans during her stay, and bring her energy down to a lower frequency. The high Core Signature she carried was a real disturbance for the Luciferian Tribe, whose members needed a much lower and denser vibe to thrive. In addition, the bag was covered in her DNA: which would be very useful for Monsieur Harker’s experiments. They also wanted to put their hands on her ID. It may be handy in the future. Luck was on their side; they also found her diary. Their boss would be delighted.

* * * *
Kassandra, Letizia and Pierre made their way back to the girls’ hostel. Kassandra felt upset and very vulnerable. She was in a hostile environment, surrounded by unfriendly forces. Normally she could dismiss this nonsense with a blink of her long-lashed eyes, but it didn’t seem to work this time. Her feelings were all over the place and she couldn’t think straight. She wanted to be held and protected. She phoned her adoptive father. Lord Hughes arranged for money to be sent to a bank in the city where she could collect it. It would take a couple of days so she would have to survive with some cash borrowed from Letizia. Yet it wasn’t money she was worried about. Something else was draining her soul and her Life Force. She needed a fix of love. As soon as she got out of the phone booth in the cafeteria, the troubadour-surfer crossed her path.
“Hello there! Where were you this morning? I came to the cafeteria but you weren’t here!”
He had an Irish accent, to her surprise.
“I was here! I left around ten to go sightseeing,” she said. “Where were you? By the way, my name is Kassandra. Nice singing this morning. What’s your name?”
“Conor. Thank you. Nice to meet you. Are you English?”
“I’m Italian by birth but my parents are from Sussex.”
“Ah! What brings you to Paris?”
“You!”
She was her cheeky, assertive self again. They were flirting, as expected. Talking to Conor, her confused state of mind started to ease off. This man’s presence was mellow and calming. Destiny must have sent him.
She took him by the hand and brought him to the table where Letizia and Pierre were sitting. “Come join me and my friends for a bite.”
Two couples were formed as the evening stretched into the night. After dinner, they went for a walk around the neighborhood. Kassandra and Conor talked about Ireland. She’d never been to the country but was keen to find out about the spirituality of its people. The place had a strong connection with the soul of the land, unlike the majority of Western countries. She was intrigued.
Conor had a great affinity for ancient spiritual sites. He described himself as a follower of the ancient druidic religion. One of the reasons for his visit to Paris, apart from busking, was to explore its Catacombs. He felt a strong call towards this area and sensed that it emanated a heavy dark force. Kassandra herself had not been aware of it until that very day. She proceeded to relate the events of that afternoon. Conor told her that he felt that that she was at risk in Paris.
“The Dark Forces are after you. I’m speaking through my second sight. You have to trust me on that. There is something in this city which wants to hurt you, which wants to take you away from the man you were born to love and from the very purpose of your life.”
She believed him. She knew that it was we, the Masters, who were talking through Conor’s second sight. But she didn’t know that Harker was also using him as a puppet in his scheming.  Kassandra was in great danger. Fortunately, Lord Ralph’s money arrived two days later. Kassandra took the first plane to Scotland. She didn’t keep in touch with Conor. Their paths were destined to cross again, however, when she moved to Ireland three years later.


Paris, winter 1991


The lab technician couldn’t hide his enthusiasm. “These cells are remarkably resilient. Marion, come and look at them through this microscope. They have multiplied again and recreated the tissue. The radioactive bombardment hasn’t destroyed or transmuted them. They have managed to maintain the shape they had before irradiation.”
Men and women in white coats worked diligently at their assays, checking results and entering them in their log books. Due to the highly confidential nature of the study  that was being conducted, the Director and the Research Committee had decided that the experiment should not take place in their laboratories in Switzerland, but at the secret location deep in the Parisian catacombs, in an area so long closed-off that it had become forgotten. No government was informed. The very best scientists from all around the world were recruited to offer their skills to the project. They each signed a one-year contract with a special clause. To ensure the confidentiality of the study, they all had to agree to undergo neurological laser therapy at the end of their tenure. The procedure ensured that any memory associated with this experiment would be wiped away.
Marion was the only person among them who would be working throughout the project up to its completion. Her credentials were impeccable: she was married to the Director of Three-D Pharmaceuticals. Her colleagues didn’t know and she would never let it transpire either. Marion and Bob Harker had been married for over thirty years. She was in her late sixties but looked half her age. She didn’t know her husband’s actual age. He said he had stopped counting when he got bored. The truth was a secret he had shared with her, and which she would keep until she died. Robert Harker was immortal. She had married the devil. He was the real thing. Her first reaction had been one of deep terror. In the end, however, she had come to consider meeting him as the best event in her life.
Robert was involved in many activities, from medical research to financial investment. He was also the founder of the Hypnosis Centre on the Boulevard du Montparnasse. It had opened at the height of the student revolution, in the early part of 1968. A regular figure on the student barricades, Harker had attracted a significant number of followers. He was looking for candidates who wanted to learn how to expand their minds and reach higher levels of awareness. Many artists, musicians and poets of the time started to attend his workshops in Montparnasse. Rumors of his immortality had started to circulate then.
Once a promising research fellow at the prestigious Santé Research Institute, Marion’s path had crossed with Robert’s on campus in 1968. She’d never seen such an attractive man before. Everything about him oozed charisma: his voice, his mannerisms, the way he swept his chin-length fringe from his face. He looked like a Victorian character: like Hanno from the Buddenbrooks, or Dorian Gray of the famous picture fame. As with all women wooed by him, she too fell in love the minute her eyes met his. He loved her too, in his own liberal way. She had that quality he most admired in people: intelligence. Beauty wasn’t as important. It could be recreated through surgical procedures. That had been the case with Marion and many of Robert’s closest female friends. Intelligence, however, and at the level with which she was endowed, could not be solely reproduced at will.
Robert wanted to create an immortal human by chemical processes. Marion’s pioneering knowledge of cloning techniques in plants and animals were her ticket to his heart. Thirty odd years on, the two were still the best of partners. Like all couples, they were trying for a baby. But not in an ordinary way. They wanted an immortal baby. This would take some serious work. Marion applied herself in the lab with religious discipline. After many years of research, they were finally making some headway.
The experiment concerned tissue cloning. Initially, the research team’s efforts concentrated simply on deriving a population of cells from a single cell. Success rates had exceeded their wildest expectations, so attempts were made at reproductive cloning through somatic cell nuclear transfer. The purpose of their research was very specific: cloning that one particular individual who had obsessed Harker for the past twenty odd years.
Marion approached the microscope and looked at the Life Force working its magic on the assay. The cells were unscathed and healthy.
“Let me see, Francois. Yes, these cells are perfect. They are alive and reproducing. Monsieur Harker was right: immortality is contained in this DNA. Onto the next step now: reproductive human cloning.”

24 January 2014

Chapter Seven - "OSCAR"

Seven
OSCAR



Connection


As he walked in downtown Glasgow, soft rain was falling on the street and on his face. He didn’t care. He was following his inspiration. Nothing could distract his concentration from the prey of his attention. The dark waves of his chin-length locks had turned to softer curls in the damp air. He towered over the crowd of shoppers in Buchanan Street for both height and presence. The gentle loveliness of the East and the muscular beauty of the West were fused in him. He had an elegant, slow stride. He wouldn’t go anywhere without a drawing pad and a bag full of crayons. A celebrity in town: his eyes were on the pavement and his head was in the clouds. Oscar O’Leary wouldn’t go unnoticed anywhere.
Glam World magazine had mentioned his visit to the city. Two young women whispered to each other when they recognized him. He didn’t see them, busy as he was digging up the bones of an distant memory, a long-buried feeling that he wanted to forget and had been afraid to retrieve for a long time. It had caused him so much hurt.
“I turn you into shapes and colors as liquid as sunshine,” he had thought on a dark night. “If I give you a name, a hue, a sensation, I will become your master and you won’t rule my life anymore...”
That’s how he took up painting: to escape the demons of his past. He was twelve then. Thirteen years later he’d become the youngest artist to have a monographic exhibition in the prestigious Situchi Gallery, the coolest place to showcase and sell one’s art work. The rest is history. Many Hollywood stars bought his paintings and installations. The world fell in love with him and he became an overnight success. Three years on to that date, he was in town as the star guest at the vernissage of a joint exhibition by Glaswegian artists. Life was wonderful. He was the center of attention, and that was good. But an important someone was still missing from his life, and that bothered him. He felt incomplete on his own, which made him think about things he wanted to forget. Unbeknown to Oscar and Kassandra, their respective paths were pulling them towards their first encounter. Well, their first encounter in the third dimension of physicality.
The two girls called Oscar. He turned and noticed them.
The blonde’s hot. Mega boobs.”
They asked for his autograph. He was used to being stopped like that. Even that kind of ‘worship’ was a call for love, from both sides. People took photographs. A small crowd gathered around him. Fans asked him the usual questions. Was it true that Layla McIntyre was going to be at the opening? Were they dating? How was his experience in Australia? Did he really go on a walkabout with an Aborigine tribe for three months? Did it give him a different perspective to his work? Was that the inspiration behind his latest production?
By means of a reply, he said: “Is that what you want to believe?”  He was everything but verbose. He could now sense a sudden magnetic pull in his chest. His Native Australian friends had taught him to listen to this kind of heart-intuition. Ignoring the crowd of admirers around him, he turned his hazel eyes to the passing clouds in the sky, tilting his head back a little as to let the rain kiss his neck.
“New feeling. Very strong. I can’t think of any event or person clearly associated to it... Wow...”
Yet there was a familiar je ne sais quoi in that sensation. What was it? Who was it? As soon as a sense of recognition registered in his mind, the impression was gone and all he could hear was the rumbling of his stomach. He’d not eaten since lunchtime on the day before. Noon was approaching again. A coffee shop came into the focus of his glance: “Soul Food.”  Heaven-sent, obviously. It was a picture of prettiness made of lime green tables and pink chairs. He stepped in and sat at the only vacant table. That’s when he saw her. Months later, on a romantic night, he told her that his heart had barely beaten in her absence up until that moment.


Soul Café, Glasgow, 24 April 1993


“Oh my God! Kassie, can you see him?! He’s sitting in front of me, and he’s looking in our direction... Oscar O’Leary... I can’t believe it... he’s so gorgeous... I think he saw me looking at him... am I blushing? Incredible, he’s amazing, he’s just so sexy!” 
I was only half-listening to Polly’s ramblings on this painter who was supposed to be the most spiritual artist who’d ever walked the planet, a person who brought art alive with his drawings, who’d awoken magic into the eyes of those who beheld them. On first impression, you seemed a bit too self-conscious. Handsome? Well, very. Your black curls had hints of blue in their natural wave. Your eyes were the color of amber and your face was chiseled and yet as gentle as an angel’s. You were so young then.
Somehow you didn’t make a massive impression on me at first. I thought you were the kind of man who expected the world to revolve around him. The fact that at the time I was myself a girl who wanted to be the center of attention probably confused me. I thought Gordon’s muscular body was more manly and powerful than yours. What I found appealing about Gordon was his obliviousness to his surroundings and his mindlessness of fans, although he was a celebrity in his own right. My ex was self-involved at best and self-centered at worst. Or perhaps he was just too thick to realize that there was a world around him.
But I was still intrigued by you. I studied you as you sat two tables away from ours. Unlike the majority of people, you were paying attention to every single detail in the café, as if your penetrating eyes were marking the territory. There was a lot of purple in your aura, together with gold and emerald green. You were very charismatic: your presence filled the room.
I knew you were Irish by descent, and you also had Japanese blood in your veins. Your maternal grandmother, Yoshiko Suno, had been an acclaimed actress in Yomasami’s plays. Her affair with the great Irish mystical poet was a scandal in the 1930s. Your mother was the love child of the east and the west. That’s why your looks were unique. I stared at you as you kept sketching on your notepad. Your movements were composed and relaxed, as if you were drawing something from memory, channeling all your awareness into those gentle strokes.
You raised your head and looked at me for half a second. Our eyes met for the first time. Time stood still and expanded. Everything around us disappeared into a background of nothingness. You had magnetic come-to-bed eyes. They were drawing me into your world. You wanted to enlist me in your collection of women, among the notches on your bedpost. Or so I thought. And so I looked away. I wouldn’t fall prey to the ego of a Casanova. A part of me was still in love with Gordon. My human self needed a little more time to be distracted from the pain of my loss.
You smiled. At me. I didn’t bat an eyelid. Instead, I said to Polly: “He likes you. He’s winking at you, woman... come on, do something!”
I was only trying to deflect your attention, your energy. I wasn’t ready yet. I was afraid of you. At the same time, I was in awe.
“Go ask him for his autograph... or his room number,” I said. “They say he’s a slut, and he’s definitely taking a shine here... you should use this opportunity!”
Polly was a very shy girl who would never approach you without my help. I only said those words in an attempt to side-track my eyes from wanting to meet yours. I intended to eat my scone and get out of that place. I was uncomfortable and under scrutiny. Your glance stuck to my skin like honeydew. It made me feel exposed and vulnerable.
As a displacement activity, I started reading the newspaper that was lying on the empty chair at our table. I opened it at a random page. Fate has a strange sense of humor. Gordon’s face was staring at me from the ‘gossip’ column. It was official: he was going to become a father. The short article referred to Linda as his ‘girlfriend’.
My heart sank in that coffee shop. I’d not got over him as completely as I had assumed. My mind had, but not my body. My blood ran cold. I had to leave the café and be alone. I rushed out and started running down Buchanan Street like a headless ghost from somebody’s past. Polly understood what had happened as soon as she saw the article. She paid for our coffees, cast a final longing glance at you and then followed me to the street. By the time she got out of Soul Food, I’d already disappeared into the maze of my desperate thoughts. Not a place for the uninitiated to venture.


Arkadians on the side-lines


We had been in the café for a while as well. We didn’t miss a second of what had gone on. Particular heed was paid to the silent interaction between Kassandra and Oscar. They had met, at last. We spied his sketchbook and were surprised at the remarkable resemblance of his portrait of Kassandra. The way he had depicted her hinted at her secret. He’d stumbled upon it so effortlessly. He would disclose it to himself very soon.
Their encounter went as we had planned it. He fell for her the moment he laid his roving eyes on her face. What we could not get over, however, was the fact that she had not been impressed by him. Did she not recognize him? Did she not realize that he was the one? We had raised her frequency so that he could detect her more easily. Or at least his subconscious mind could. It had worked very well. He had been brilliant at following the signs. He was a good, attentive listener. And true to his well developed earthly nature, his stomach had taken him to the café and right next to her.
Kassandra disappointed us with her lack of sensitivity to the Plan. We had sent her all the signs pointing towards Oscar along the way. Of course, she was young and still a bit incredulous. Nonetheless, her disregard for her mission was preposterous. Gordon had definitely dented her purpose. She had never misbehaved like that before.
This had nothing to do with the quickening of her transformation, or the effects of the change in her body at the cellular level. There was something more worrying and sinister in the way she had refused to listen to her destiny. Her reverting to the past had nothing to do with her nature, with her True Identity: it was completely out of character. The seed of doubt had been planted in her consciousness. We feared the worst. There was only a group of people capable of piercing through such a crystal-clear mind. We feared they had found out about Kassandra. We had to find her as soon as possible. She could even be in danger. Or worse: she could be lost somewhere in space-time.
We left Oscar and his sketchbook in Soul Food and set out to follow Kassandra. Trying to tune into her frequency proved useless. Nothing. We tried looking for her through physical eyes. Zilch. She was nowhere to be seen. Her Core signature and Light were undetectable. That was the first time she’d disappeared from our radars during the twenty-five years of her life. Dark clouds loomed in the distance.
We returned to the café. From his table, Oscar had watched the scene of Kassandra’s sudden departure. What happened to the girl whose portrait had occupied him for the past twenty minutes? Where had she gone? He had been too busy sketching and familiarizing himself with the new feeling in his heart. He couldn’t even articulate what this sensation was, and why he’d associated it to that lovely woman in the cream and beige dress, and the long brown hair, and the amazing suntan, and those big green eyes that pierced through his consciousness like embers.
He was in love. Simple. Just like that. She had to be an enchantress. He could tell the type very well. Her latest antics had also revealed her as an eccentric and a bit of a drama queen. What an exit she’d made! It wouldn’t deter him from wanting the spoils of her heart all the same. He liked her quirky style and those emotions she wore on her sleeve. A crystal-clear bundle of feelings, she was. Of the purest, deepest, most aware kind. He breathed in deeply, finished his coffee and kept at his drawing for another quarter of an hour. He had always maintained that longing is the stuff art is made of.
Why didn’t he make a move on her? Why didn’t he run after her and try to save her from whatever cloud was crossing her sky? His face darkened.
“Of course I shouldn’t get too close to her, or anyone for that matter, because of what happened in the past.”
 He didn’t want to think about it, about that wound he kept running from, the mark imprinted on his life forever. He couldn’t get close to her or it would burn her too. He was a hurt-generating machine that might never change. He couldn’t get involved in committed relationships for fear of reducing the other party to pieces. It had always ended like that. Whenever he had shared his heart with a woman. Whenever there was real intimacy. Truly, the only intimacy he’d ever experienced was with a bottle of vodka, a line of coke, and drunken strangers who disappeared from his memory and his life the day after.
Things had changed in Australia though. Healing had started there. He continued pouring his thoughts into the drawing of that angelic vision in the café, but the veil of defeat was descending upon him.
“No, that’s not the way!”
He slammed the palms of his hands on the table, took some change from his pocket to pay for the coffee, packed his sketchbook into his canvas sling bag and left. The other punters in the café turned their heads to watch. He couldn’t care less. He had to catch up with the beautiful girl. He wouldn’t give in to his shyness. Or his wound. His heart would guide him this time.
We rejoiced at his decision and followed him in his roaming. He was the only one who could find Kassandra now, at a time when she was lost even to her own self.


Oscar’s Secret (Dublin, winter 1971)


Little Oscar watched Sister Nora’s creeping gown move away in the distance, taking the fat nun with it. Her dark silhouette swept past the rows of beds where the boys had been tied up for their bedtime. Sixteen beds in each room, the sound of weeping and heaving sobs mixed together. The big clock above the main door tick-tocked its sad rhythm. Terror reigned supreme.
Now it was sleep or else. Soon the medicine would take effect and kick into his bloodstream like a tsunami. And then all would be calm and mellow. A big stillness would finally expand into his heart and mind. Thoughts were going to be eased out and wiped away. Tomorrow would be another day. But for now, for a few hours, Oscar might hope to be comforted by the nothingness of sleep. Emptiness. Peace. Silence.
Perhaps the voices in his head would subside. Perhaps they would give him some respite. Of course, he was a bad, bad, bad boy who deserved to have ended up in that horrid place, and to have been given that unspeakable punishment by the bogeyman in the Infirmary. His family couldn’t handle him. Nobody really wanted him. He had to be cured.
Maybe the other boys there were like him, and they wanted the darkness to spread through their minds and their lives like a relentless ink-stain. Perhaps the horror in their souls was also too much. Just like him, even when they confessed their sins, perhaps the darkness would still stretch from their hearts to their minds, and paint their lives the color of the night. They were doomed. They were all possessed.
Oscar was aware that he was cursed: how could he ever forget? He was only six and a half but he knew full well that the devil was directing his actions, pulling the strings of his limbs. He was a dreadful sinner. He asked questions about things which could not be discussed. He was restless, he was bold; a naughty boy. His mum had tried to protect him from himself, but the voices had always come back, telling him to do things that would embarrass him, or get him punished, or both.
He hated being six and a half. There had been better times. Things had not been that awful when he was still four. He could see the little people others couldn’t see. Mum had told him they didn’t exist: they were the fruit of his imagination. But then they started talking to him. Especially when dad was drunk and would come home stinking of alcohol, with stains on his shirt and violence in his heart and hands.
His father wasn’t bad when he didn’t drink. He had taught Oscar how to draw only a year previously. He spent a lot of time with him and his brother that year when he was working from home and planning the building of their new estate in Wicklow. But drinking was the problem that plagued his dad’s generation. When he drank, things would change quickly. Mum would cry, dad would shake her up and shout because she cried, and Oscar would jump into his baby brother’s bed and put his hands on Conor’s ears. At least his brother wouldn’t have to hear what was going on in the background.
One night after dad had come back from the local pub and the usual racket had started, Oscar heard the voices in his head telling him not to be afraid. They spoke clearly. They sounded like so many crystal cymbals.
“Hush, Oscar. Don’t be afraid. We are here to help you. We’ll keep you company and tell you stories till the night has gone.”
He was still four then, and he turned five shortly after the voices started talking to him. There were good voices and scary voices too. The frightening ones were very creepy and sounded like the roar of a dragon or the waves crashing on the rocks during a storm. They told him he was a bad boy who should do as he was told. Otherwise they would haunt him, they would kill his mum and then only his dad would be left, and they would steal away his little brother. Oscar didn’t want to upset them. But he didn’t want to offend his mum and dad either.
So what was he supposed to do when those voices told him to go to the kitchen, tell mum not to cry and start punching his dad? He was six by the time he finally took the good voices’ advice, and did just that. With a grave look on his pale little face, he stepped into the room where his parents were arguing. He kicked his father’s legs and hit him in the stomach.
“Let her go, let her go...,” he demanded.
Oscar’s actions shocked his father into stopping the beating. He shook himself and looked ashamed, then slumped on his knees and hugged his little boy.
 “Oscar, I’m so so so sorry... I didn’t mean to hurt her. I don’t want to hurt anyone, you, your mother, anyone... I am weak, I am a weak man... I lose control, I lose the run of myself and my actions. I won’t do this again, I will never do this again. Forgive me, little man.” 
Oscar’s eyes grew serious as tears streamed down his cheeks.
“Okay, dad,” he said.
But he knew he would never forgive his father for the trauma he had inflicted on him.
“Well done, Oscar, you brought peace back in your family,” the good voices said. “But you shouldn’t have used violence...”
This was clearly no time for celebrations. There was blood coming out from his mother’s nose as she was lying on the floor, shaking and sobbing louder than ever.
“Oscar, come here, don’t be afraid, mo chroí. Mummy’s okay, I banged my head on the cupboard and your dad just got mad at me for getting hurt. You know how clumsy I am. That’s all it was, it was all my fault.” 
But Oscar knew that she was lying.
“It’s your fault,” the bad voices said.
“No, it’s not,” the good ones told him.
He felt like his head was sliced in two.
Six months later, Oscar was sent to St. Anthony’s Children’s Institution. It was an old hospital that housed kids with varying mental pathologies: from those feared to have behavioral problems to the truly possessed, like Oscar. His stay was meant to cure him of his seizures, which had started shortly after he had witnessed his dad beat up his mum up in the kitchen on that fateful night.
His parents initially didn’t want to send him to the Institution. First, they flew him over to Japan to stay with his maternal grandmother. He could be treated properly there, and undergo psychological tests and art therapy for children. Those were probably the best months of his young, tragic life. Grandma Yoshiko lived in Tokyo. She was still acting when he was a child. She had always lived alone as she and Grandpa were not married. Oscar had never met his grandfather, the great poet, who had died during the war, shortly after the birth of his mother.
Oscar’s mother, Elaine Aki, was raised in Japan by Grandma alone. However, she had always felt more Irish than Japanese, and had always known she would marry young. Growing up without a father meant she needed a strong man in her life as soon as possible, she thought. She had moved to Dublin when she was eighteen to study English literature and drama, pretty much in her father’s footsteps. In her first year at college, she and Oscar’s father met at a ball. It was a classic case of opposites attracting each other. Brian O’Leary was a young architect from a wealthy Kerry family. He lived in Dublin where he owned and managed an architectural firm. He was tall, boisterous and jovial. She was petite, reserved and demure.
They married quickly, with Yoshiko’s blessing. Oscar was born within the first year of their marriage, followed by Conor two years later. Brian’s drinking got out of hand after the birth of their second son. Oscar didn’t know what had happened but was quite certain that there must have been a specific reason for it. His parents started fighting a lot.
By the time he was five, Oscar had become very afraid of his father and very sorry for his mother. He thought that life was hard and burdensome. All he wanted to do was to sleep or daydream, and protect his brother from the unhappiness of their household. His baby brother was an angel who didn’t need to be exposed to all that hurt.
The little people appeared for the first time one afternoon while he was playing in the playground of their family estate. Mum was pregnant with Conor and was sitting on a bench, writing a letter. Salvador, the gardener, was watering the rose bushes and whistling a tune. Mum stopped writing and smiled at him. Salvador nodded back. Oscar walked away from the baby swing, entranced by the blueness of the sky above him. Then something sparkled in his sight. He thought it was an ingot of gold, or a magical ring, or a secret treasure chest hidden among the oak trees at the back of the playground. He followed the shimmering until he was out of the grown-ups’ visual range.
That’s when he saw them, sitting on a rock, sunbathing: two little elves, one male and one female, dressed in the leaves and flowers of the summer. He wasn’t too surprised. He had always suspected that there was more to life than meets the eye. The two little persons were staring at him too, motionless. All of a sudden, they stood up and ran towards him, sprinkling fairy dust around his feet. Before he could say a word, they had disappeared. No way could he tell anyone of this magical encounter! This would be a secret for as long as he could keep it. And he had only just learned to say a couple of words by then anyway: he was only two and a half after all. These new friends would keep him company in months to come, when life in his family would take a very unhappy turn.
These elves had also followed Oscar to Tokyo three and a half years later, at the height of his sadness. Grandma couldn’t see them but she didn’t doubt that they existed. She would do anything to make his grandchild feel accepted, and she always showered him with love and her full attention. During the first six months of his stay, his health improved, although he missed his family. But Grandma would teach him many things. She would read him beautiful stories and let him have all the treats he wanted. Peace seemed to have come to stay, until one dreadful night when the Lord of the Darkness himself came to Oscar’s bed and sat at his side. He told him that he was his own child, and Brian wasn’t really his dad.
Oscar screamed: “I don’t believe you!”
Grandma switched the lights on only to find her grandson had wet his bed and was shrieking like a lunatic, beating his head and fists on the wall to the point of bleeding. It took her all of her strength and the help of the night servants to calm him down. Oscar’s seizure ended after twenty minutes of madness. The boy collapsed in bed, as white as a sheet and covered in sweat. His temperature was sky high and he was foaming at the mouth. The following day he was sent to the best neurologist in Tokyo who gave him some medication to calm his nerves. Two days later, he and Grandma were on a plane back to Dublin. The following week, he found himself at St. Anthony’s Institution in Bray. He was to spend the next three weeks there. His life was about to change forever.
At the Institution, Sister Nora was one of the people he feared the most, almost as much as the bogeyman. She was very violent. Beatings were one of the ways used to keep naughty children under control, and she relished her role as teacher of these lessons. Oscar misbehaved all the time. He had to do what the voices told him to do. They made him do the dirtiest of things. He couldn’t help but take off his clothes and run around naked. He couldn’t help but play with his willy until thrilling sparkles ran through his limbs. He couldn’t help but say bad words. He couldn’t help but wet his bed. He couldn’t help but break windows, smash furniture, fight with the other children. What else was he supposed to do? He was a sinner: the grown-ups had told him so many times.
In the second week of his stay, he was sent to the special ward where they housed all the boys as bad as he. They all seemed very quiet at first. Of course, they were sedated. Most of them had already undergone electroshock therapy, and soon he would also face this treatment. It was the last hope. His parents came to visit him twice. Mum cried every time she saw him. Dad wore a serious expression and told him to chin up. All Oscar wanted to know was how Conor was, and if he missed his big brother. Otherwise, words failed him.
The more silent he turned, the louder the voices started to become in his head. One night the bad ones told him that the next day was going to be the toughest day of his life. That he would lose his mind completely. That the treatment he was to undergo was very strong and very painful. Oscar wanted to sleep and forget about it all, except he knew that upon awakening, he would be greeted by the worst, scariest day of his life. He wanted to die. He started praying that he could die. The voices laughed at him. He was the child of the devil. He opened his eyes in the hope that they would stop.
When he turned his head to the window next to his bed, he saw a face reflected in the windowpane, although no one else was there with him. Perhaps the little people were now playing tricks on him. But this was the face of a little girl. She was probably a couple of years younger than him and had big, bright eyes. She put her index finger to her lips and signaled to him that he should hush. Then she nodded and smiled. Light radiated around her. Oscar’s breathing became deep and regular. A strong sense of peace pervaded his mind and his limbs.
Who was that girl? Surely she was an angel. Or perhaps a ghost, a girl who had died in the hospital, suffering at the hands of Sister Nora and her entourage. Oscar thought that now he didn’t mind dying. It was definitely a much better choice than recovering and having to go through life with the mark of the devil branded on his soul.
 “Shhhhhh,” the girl said.
Sleep came to Oscar’s rescue. His thoughts melted into a pharmaceutical kaleidoscope of shapes, spiraling down to the pitch-black depths of his love-starved heart. Then there was a long interval of void-like nothingness, until he saw two green eyes that shone like fluorescent lights. They opened up in the blackness to spread Light on that dark night of his soul. They were so bright that even the charcoal shadows of his personal hell couldn’t defeat them.
The pale light of the morning came filtering through the curtains, and Oscar awoke to another wet bed. He wasn’t ashamed anymore. He expected to feel afraid at the thought of what was in store for him that morning, but the fear wasn’t forthcoming. He was calm and centered instead. That girl was his Savior: she could sweep all bad thoughts away. He sat up in bed rubbing his fists onto his eyes. He was still sleepy. He went to the washroom and took a quick cold shower. He got dressed in his daytime clothes and went downstairs to the laundry room where he washed his bed linen. Then he returned to the bedroom and made his bed. Now he was ready. He sat and waited for Sister Nora and Doctor Morrissey. He noticed something on the chair next to his bed: a golden chain with an angel medal. The girl must have left it. He put it under his pillow. That medal would have the power to return him to her even after what was awaiting him that day.
The nun arrived. Oscar followed her along the long, white corridor, walking on automatic pilot and breathing deeply. They entered an otherwise claustrophobic lift that took them to the vaults under the dormitory. The darkness in the huge room made his eyes squint. A bed stood in front of him, with a machine behind it. It looked like a shelf with many glass tubes on it. A number of wires spread out of the support, with pads attached to their ends. Oscar was put lying down on the bed and was injected with the medicine that had never failed to tranquilize him. He fell into a state of numbness. All he could think about was his breath. The little girl was next to him in spirit. He detected her presence and this made him feel calm. It didn’t matter that he might have died in that experiment. She would be there with him whichever way, whether he was going to be alive or dead after the electroshock. He wasn’t altogether certain that she didn’t belong to the land of the dead already.
Arkadia watching the same event, 19 December 1971
The Great Diamond Lodge was in session. We, the Arkadian Masters, were sending high frequencies to Oscar right when the anesthetic was entering his blood flow. There were four adhesive pads applied to his forehead. We saw a nurse put a belt around his temples and fasten it tightly.
Oscar was made to count backwards. When he became unconscious, the doctor put a teeth-guard in his mouth. Then the current was switched on. Oscar’s body jolted as if struck by a lightning bolt. One hundred and seventy volts ran through his tiny, fragile limbs for five whole minutes. Kassandra’s astral body – she was indeed the little girl who had comforted him the previous night - stood next to him with her hands on his heart, to protect him from certain death. Nobody in the room could see her. She was making sure that Oscar, one of the youngest patients ever to undergo electroconvulsive therapy in Ireland, would wake up after the treatment. His heart was weak, but it belonged to her. She would do everything in her power to preserve it.
In this life, Oscar had chosen a difficult way to remember his True Identity: the Path of Sorrow. Only by allowing himself to experience the depths of despair would he remember his function in the Plan. He was Kassandra’s Earthly Twin Soul. She had known of him and his fate even when she was still a little girl. She hadn’t quite grasped it rationally. But she would often daydream of a beautiful little boy with sad almond-shaped, hazel eyes. Oscar was her invisible friend in her make-believe stories in which he needed her protection to escape from the Darkness. She would always shine her Light on his scared little heart. But her imaginary friend and his misadventures were more real than she could have envisaged then.
We, the Arkadian Masters, could read the thoughts of the medical staff in the room as the procedure was being carried out. They didn’t mean to harm Oscar. They wanted the boy lying on the plinth to wake up only with the memory of good episodes and experiences from his past. Everything else would be swept away by the current, they believed. Of course, they knew that there was an inherent risk that his mental capacity would be reduced by the seizures induced by this therapy to modify his behavior. They only wanted to damage what they saw as problematic portions of his brain. If all went well, he would forget the symptoms of his badness because that brain damage would simply delete them. He might end up with some cognitive impairment, but his life would be almost normal.
Sister Nora looked serene as she glanced over the activities around Oscar’s unconscious body. She was shrouded in a cloud of Darkness, and she was praying for ‘the mark of the devil’ to be washed away from ‘this little sinner’s soul’. She wasn’t really sure that it could be possible.

We knew that the nun was evil. How could she otherwise have kept silent in the face of the Oscar’s terrible ordeal a week earlier? Just like Kassandra, we had seen what had happened to him in the Infirmary. Yet we couldn’t do anything to prevent it. Of course, the wound it would cause in his soul couldn’t be wiped away by any machine. It would take time, awareness and love to heal. Right then, all we could do was send high frequencies of Light to Kassandra at such a delicate junction, when her love for Oscar was helping him to stay alive.

09 September 2012

My name is Kassandra and I am a Magic Woman


My name is Cassandra Morgante and I am a Magic Woman. You have found me because I am your kin and your friend. You are now ready to tap into the deepest part of your heart that calls for healing. I call it your Star Heart.

I was born to fulfil a prophecy and help the evolution of our broken-hearted humankind into a race of immortal beings. Bear with me for a little while, if your attention can handle my words. I can talk to the deepest longings in a woman’s dreams. I can whisper seductive words into the ears of the toughest man, and make his fortress crumble. My Power is now fully fledged. I am invincible.

But it wasn’t always so. I used to be a spoilt brat who was often in denial of the gifts that I was born with. My True Nature only came to the fore when my path crossed that of Oscar O’Leary, a spiritual artist and secret initiate into the mysteries of the Earth. When we met, he was a very complex, self-loathing yet generous man. In our encounter, and in the love we made and shared, a new humanity became possible: our own. This is the story of how I learned to love him completely, despite the many obstacles on the way to the fulfilment of our love.

My ancestry is part human and part stellar, much like yours, much like that of all of us on this planet. The difference between you and me is simply that I have remembered my True Identity and I am willing to share the path that took me there. It is not difficult to find the way back to your True Home and your True Destiny. But it does require some alternative thinking. I hope I can engage your attention and let it take you there. My story is a bit of a short-cut.

There is nothing wrong with the yearnings of your heart, and that feeling of alienation that overcomes you sometimes. As soon as life’s problems present themselves on the path, the human tendency is to become lost to many aspects of our Souls. Time has the habit of wiping the memory of our True Origin from our mind. But rest assured: our hearts never let go of the Truth. 

My merge with my True Lover is a fairytale-like adventure in consciousness that can operate on many levels, but only if you allow it. I know, not all the steps may seem that clear to you, but they are true. And the Truth will always take you Home to Shambhala, the Land of Gods and Goddesses. Look for parallels between my love for Oscar and how you felt in relation to the One Love of Your Life. May my story mirror your awakening to your heart’s call. This is the reason why I chose to disclose it.

    Remember, my friend, that Life on Earth is an adventure in consciousness. Magic and wonder are possible. It takes a little bit of work and lots of enthusiasm. Are you ready to start the journey? It has many ends but just one beginning. Would you like to read my story?

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